"once upon a tale..." began the story teller..... [22 Nov 2009|04:16am] [ mood | at peace ] [ music | A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras (Feel My Ice Dub Mix) ] a new chapter is beginning.. a new chapter, that i have endlessly been waiting for. as of december 4th. i leave the united states... and begin my new life... in australia. a dream.. since i was 9 years old.. just a dream then, 16 years later.. and now, a reality. i'll miss those that i have been close to.. those who i have befriended.. and in return, whom have befriended me. my family.. it will be hard leaving them at the airport. but i end one chapter.. to start a new one. a new one.. with my beautiful fiance.. ---- i consider my life thus far.. fortunate. ever so rarely does a dream become a reality for most. life isn't easy there is no free lunch great sacrifices will be made. but ... if you hold on, just hold on... and above all else, . . . b r e a t h e . . . ps... i love this version of this song.. uncover my veil?

so comfortable [21 Jul 2009|11:38am] why am i wrong when i know that i'm right? uncover my veil?

nobody said it was easy; nobody said it would be this hard [11 May 2009|03:35pm] [ mood | apathetic ] god grant me patience. because i don't know if i can do this anymore. "And take a little walk when the worst is to come When I saw you looking like I never thought And say you're at a loss or forgot that words can do more than harm" uncover my veil?

my eyes can't look at you any other way [10 Mar 2009|02:26am] [ mood | soft ] [ music | band of horses - detlef schrempf ] i recently found this new band.. they aren't new.. but yea.. Band of Horses. i'm memorized by the lead vocals he has a soothing voice.. especially this song.. it's one of my favorites on this album. even tho.. Chris Martin is still the sex vocals in my opinion. (singer of coldplay) you can download their album "Cease to Begin" here: Band of Horses it's on my server.. so no nasty viruses or anything like that. just right click and save the files please ^.^ promote and share!! it's a really nice band to promote! uncover my veil?

i'm all there is . . . [05 Mar 2009|09:37pm] [ mood | reflecting ] dewey: what did you get for valentines day? me: nothing. a silence. dewey: what did you get for christmas? me: nothing. another silent pause. dewey: that's not fair kristina. you give too much, and with nothing in return. i told michael the other day that i wasn't happy. and for the life of me.. i didn't know why at the time. like an instinctual reaction.. you don't know the cause or effect until you let it happen and pass. then only.. and only then, when you have forgotten it completely.. when you stop dewelling on the now of the reason.. when other thoughts, ideas, appointments fill your mind. does your unconscienceness allow you to see what it was, your conscience mind was soo blind to see in the first place. i told michael that i wasn't happy.. not because of our relationship, long distance as it is. he is an honest, kind, out spoken man. of course we don't always agree about something.. but he doesn't push me to his way of thinking. no.. it's not our relationship.. but the more it comes to me.. the more i see why i am so unhappy. and the reason is.. because i feel soo under rated.. not misused.. but taken for granted. i love him.. gods i love him.. but i feel soo under appreciated by him. he tells me that he loves me. and i know he does, i believe he does.. but what do i have to show for it? not an email not a letter not a card.. some random card you can pick up for a dollar at any store, sent to my address with the words "i love you". not a single comfort of understanding. a word of encouragement saying "yes, you can do it, we can do it, and soon we will be together. i believe in you like i believe in us". something physical that i can look back on and say "yes, see, here i have proof." nothing recent at all.. all i have.. is a ring.. a promise made so long ago.. that i know it's true in my heart.. but sorrow drips through it.. slowly and it is filling up.. i don't ask for the world.. i just ask that i be reminded that i'm still in it.. and some one cares enough to let me know that i still exist to them. uncover my veil?

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